All these while I had been very committed to work. I could go all the way out to complete what I need to do and I will do it well (even at the expense of my health)
But lately I had been feeling I am being taken for granted in the company. All the hard work I had put in and no one bother to appreciate. What made it worst was after putting in all the efforts, it ended up as others' credit.
Another bad experience was also my boss.
A boss whom I had great respect and appreciate, had stopped talking to me all of the sudden. This week when I am back in the office, there is just akward feelings in the air. He didn't even bothered to personally pass me the re-designation letter. I felt that i don't matter much to the department and I could be kicked out just like that....How disappointing.
I am not pushing all the blames away but I behave the way I behave is because there were too much pride in my work that I find it hard to release and it could have caused all the misuderstanding.
However, upon reflection, I need to move on and no point to dwell on what had passed. I need to continue to help those who deserves my help and to those who doesn't deserve my time I should not be feeling all sad and sorrow because they are not worth it. I should take a step back and be like those others in the office... happy - go - lucky. As it is not worth worrying and worrying and be a fool.
All the negative vibes will need to go away and I want to start new with this Chinese New Year. Time for me to mend my relationship back with my family rather than outsiders. There is really no one worth my effort and my time except my family.
